So, I haven’t written in a couple of days-it has been a busy few days for me.  I went to work at Sylvan Wed. afternoon and they told me that they had forgotten I was coming in and there wasn’t any observing for me to do, so I got to come home.  Any other day I might have been disappointed because I didn’t get the money that day, but I was really exhausted, so I decided to come on home.  Thursday I had a good but busy day at work, then I went to Opti-fast for my meeting.  I lost 3.8 lbs, and better than that, my blood pressure went down from 126/86 to 114/74! That is so awesome.  I am doing this for multiple reasons, and one of them is definitely to get healthy so that I don’t have health problems in the future.  I have started working out using my Wii Fit and I really enjoy it.  It makes working out fun.  At our meeting they talked to us about setting acheivable goals and not expecting too much, so I decided on three goals that I set for myself that are measurable and I’ll be able to know if I’ve followed those goals.

1) Drink 8 glasses of water a day.

2) Drink all 5 of my shakes at 3 hour intervals.

3) Exercise for 30 minutes at least four times a week.

So those are my three goals.  I have been doing very well with them, too.  I think that will give me the strength that I need to get through this mentally.  It’s just hard to do it, and I need all of the small hurdles I can jump!

So anyway, Friday was supposed to be an easy, great day, but as usual, something happened to set me off.  I came in and asked the Secretary if the Music Teacher had a sub.  I knew that he wasn’t going to be there, and it was supposed to be my day off, so I was hoping that he would have a sub or that they would split the classes.  When the PE Coach was absent and it was the Guidance Counselor’s day off, they split the Coach’s classes. Well nope, the Principal came out and said “Ms Davis, Mr. Maranto’s sub cancelled so I’m going to ask you to take his classes for the day.”  I said, “Well last time when Coach was absent they split his classes between Maranto and myself so that Raven could still have her day off.” She said, “Well, that should’ve never happened.  I can just tell you that’s what is happening today and from now on.”  I said, “I knew this was going to happen.”  And she said something else, but I don’t remember what it was.  I said, “So do I get my day next week to make up for this day I am missing?” And she said, very irritably, “Ms. Davis, I would love to give people the time that they need, but it’s not going to happen.”  I just walked out of the office.  I was completely pissed.  So anyway, I went in the library and was just fighting back tears. I don’t care if it sounds like I was being a baby or whatever.  Do you ever just get that feeling that someone doesn’t really like you, on a personal level? Well, I don’t get that feeling from very many people, but I do get that feeling from my principal.  I know that others might argue that she does like me, but I really, truly, don’t think she does.  I think that I get on her nerves, for some reason.  I mean, when I dibels tested the Guidance Counselor got to take 9 days off to make up for not getting her days.  But the day that they take away from me, I don’t get to make it up.  To add on to that, the Guidance Counselor got to sit in her office today while I had the 5th grade, and she should’ve been the one that had to take them.  But I made lemonade out of these VERY sour lemons.  I showed PK, K, 1st, 2nd, 3rd and 4th the Magic School bus video.  I did my regular checkout with 2nd and 4th grade, then when 5th grade came I took them outside and Coach, Ryan and I all played a game of kickball.  So the day wasn’t THAT stressful, but it was just irritating because I feel like this always happens to me.  I truly am to the point where I am going to assess my job in a day by day method.  If I have many days where I feel like I am not even acknowledged by my Principal, then I will really think about going to another school or even moving out of state.  We don’t have children, and it would break my heart to move away from my family and friends, but I do wish that I still lived in Tennessee.  It’s funny, I wish that I had certain people with me there, but I would not miss Baton Rouge.  There is nothing about this place that makes it stand out.  Of course, I would miss my family members and close friends, and I would miss many things about my work environment, but I can’t say that I wouldn’t be able to get a job that was just as great as the one I have.  Anyway, it’s just something to think about, really.  And that I have been doing.

So, I’m working this week on Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday at Sylvan and get to tutor my own students! I am so excited, but really nervous too.  I hope I do a good job.  I have Monday and Tuesday off at work, unless something happens to make that not happen!!! It sucks.  I know how much work to do, but I feel like I don’t want to get excited about a day off for fear that it will get taken away from me-it’s ridiculous!  So anyway, next weekend we are going to Natchez to stay for the Balloon Race and hang with my family.  My mom and I have been doing a lot of wedding planning and have narrowed down the photographers to three.  We are going to be doing the Cake stuff coming up in the next month.  We are taking the photos for our Save the Date invitations at the Balloon Race this weekend.  I signed up for our Registry and made our website tonight.  Here’s the link: http://www.bedbathandbeyond.com/pws.asp?id=RyanandKara4805158.  You might have to cut and paste, but thought you might be interested and want to see.

Anyway, that’s all I’ve got for tonight. I’m going to watch the LSU game and veg on the couch!

Well first of all I lost another 4 and a half pounds! That puts me up to 9.7 over the course of 12 days.  I’m so excited. That really makes all of this worth it, I tell you.  So lots of stuff happened at school today.  I had a great day today, and most of that is because it was one of my days off.  I’m finally back to a normal schedule where I actually have days off and am able to get stuff done, and I’ll be able to look forward to that every three days.  YAY!  So Ryan did not come to work with me for the most part of the day because he did a lot of errands.  So I got to work and did prayer group and was shocked that my principal actually came to it today!  So anyway, I had 5th grade morning checkout today and everything with that went well.  I had to use the phone to call and get a hair appointment and make another phone call, and then came back in and checked some e-mails, etc. and had a cup of coffee, then it was time to go to Reading Block.  So I went and helped out Ms. Head.  Came back in and got a call from Ryan about my ring and had about thirty minutes absorbed with me looking online for loose stones since the stone fell out of my ring and we have to replace it with one stone…they will not replace the smaller one because they said it would continue falling out.  So we’re going to be buying a loose diamond, so I was looking for those and generally upset and not able to concentrate because of it.  So then I had my lunch and got my materials ready for my 2nd grade class, which I had next and read my nonfiction Whales book to.  I had fourth grade after that, and we finished our worksheet.  After 2nd grade came I called and made arrangements for us to get voting booths for our Young Reader’s Choice awards.  That will not happen until much later, but we had to get on a waiting list so that we’d get one.  Then Ryan showed up, and I told him what I’d been doing all day.  Then I cleaned up all of the area around me and got my desk ready and wrote my lesson plans for next week, then went and turned them in to my principal.  I also labeled books that were young reader’s choice nominees last year with some stickers I had gotten.  I will have another day off tomorrow and will spend most of that day shelving, putting in our new books, and organizing our book shelves.  We’ve GOT to weed some books because we are just running out of room on our shelves, and I just ordered MORE new books.  Anyway, when I got home I did the Wii Fit for 18 minutes.  That’s pretty good for me considering it’s beginning activity for me.  That’s when I found out I had lost 4.5 more pounds.  I’m excited about that.  The diet is paying off!  I’m going to get my hair cut on Saturday and am getting quite a bit cut.  I’m not sure HOW much, but I know I’m getting a good deal cut.  I want something different and I want it to have a little bit more swing to it, you know?  I think it’ll look good, but I’m nervous.

Anyway I’m blabbering.  I’m going to relax. Will write more tomorrow.

So, I’m feeling incredibly irritable this afternoon/evening for some reason.  It has been going on like this all day, and I’m not sure why I feel this way, but it’s really bad.  For one thing, just like yesterday I am HATING being on this diet.  It’s funny, I don’t even care while I’m at work-I don’t even think about eating, really.  But when I get home I want to eat eat eat!  I want to just chew and enjoy the taste of something for dinner.  And that is such a temporary gratification/satisfaction that it shouldn’t even really matter, but try going without that and you feel rotten.

My day went pretty well.  I started out by finishing the organizing of the Fiction shelves that I’d been working on last week and yesterday.  Then I shelved all of the Fiction books on the cart.  Throughout the day I kept shelving the number books, and we are over halfway done with the cart, but I have to check in and unload the book cart tomorrow morning and then I’ll have a bunch more books to shelve.  So that kinda sucks.  But at least then it will be done.  And LORDY HALLELUJAH after tomorrow I have three days off to get the shelving completely done.  And then I’m going to work on organizing the shelves.  I’m working on that all day during my off time on those three days.  I’ve got to get these shelves in order-they are a nightmare.  So I’m going to do that.  Anyway, I digress.  My first grade and second grade class watched a Magic School Bus video.  I got a lot more time to shelve during that time.  My fourth grade class that came in was fairly well behaved, and they usually aren’t.  Yesterday we were not supposed to have a 5th grade group, as I’m sure you remember me saying, and then I ended up with one.  Well coach went and talked to the 5th grade teacher and told her to not take out the class today, so we should’ve gone down to 2 classes.  Well then our freaking Music teacher, who makes me want to punch him in his red face, decided he’d go brownnose to the principal and ask her about it.  Well that is one thing about our principal.  If you can make a decision without consulting her, by golly you should try. She is so overloaded that if you give her another decision to make, I guarantee it will not be a solution that is good for us.  So of course she decided that we had to go back to all having one of the 5th grades every day.  Then after school he decided he’d come up to me whining about how the 5th grade was all screwed up and he didn’t know who he was going to have and blah blah blah.  I didn’t want to hear about that crap, really, since he was the one who got it all screwy in the first place.  He really gets on my nerves.

So my 3rd grade class was good in the beginning but turned to worse afterwards.  It actually surprised me because they are usually good when I teach lessons, but they seemed to be easily sidetracked.  Then my 5th grade group came in, and though they are usually the roughest 5th grade group, they were the best for me.  They did their work and we actually had time to go over it together! I was shocked!  I have decided that I’m going to start alternating doing checkout, an information resource lesson, checkout, then reading from a YRCA book.  So I can at least get in some reading to them as often as possible.  I know that my principal insists that I do Information Resources, but I hate not being able to ever read to them.  It sucks.

So then I had Pre-K and Kindergarten and they were fine.  I have to say the only thing that ticks me off is that my principal keeps our teachers late, and the K teacher was actually fifteen minutes late picking her class up, and they are only in there for thirty minutes, so I had two classes in there for a while!  And that is no fun!

Then after work I went to Sylvan and watched some more tutoring, which I really enjoyed.  I came home and really just wanted to EAT off the plan but I ended up not doing it.  I made some of the soup but didn’t have the spoon that I always use to stir it so it was very clumpy-so clumpy that I just threw it out, and drank a shake.  I just don’t even want to think about eating anymore.  It sucks.  I just want to get past this.  Add to that the long, boring conversation I had with my mom about how I should change my hair and the way I dress, and the boring gifts she wants me to give my bridesmaids, and the boring plain white china she wants me to get for my kitchen when we want something more colorful.  It’s just been a craptastic day.

I’m ready to lay down and veg.  I just wanted to write because I thought it’d help destress me.  It kinda helped.