http://nature-faerie.com Welcome to my little world! Sun, 12 Oct 2008 02:22:10 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en So, I haven't written in a couple of days-it has been a busy few days for me.  I went to work at Sylvan Wed. afternoon and they told me that they had forgotten I was coming in and there wasn't any observing for me to do, so I got to ... http://nature-faerie.com/2008/exercise/update/ Well first of all I lost another 4 and a half pounds! That puts me up to 9.7 over the course of 12 days.  I'm so excited. That really makes all of this worth it, I tell you.  So lots of stuff happened at school today.  I had a great ... http://nature-faerie.com/2008/exercise/lost-45-pounds/ So, I'm feeling incredibly irritable this afternoon/evening for some reason.  It has been going on like this all day, and I'm not sure why I feel this way, but it's really bad.  For one thing, just like yesterday I am HATING being on this diet.  It's funny, I don't even ... http://nature-faerie.com/2008/disappointment/irritability/ Ok, so I have to write this, or I am going to proceed into the kitchen and make whatever I can get my hands on and shove it down my throat......WITHOUT chewing or breathing or enjoying it, really.  I am SO SO SO SO hungry right now.  I was not ... http://nature-faerie.com/2008/disappointment/frus-tra-tion/ So, I weighed in today.  I lost 5.2 lbs.!  That's supposed to be great, right? I'm supposed to be elated and ecstatic about losing that much weight since SUNDAY, but instead, I feel terrible.  I feel sad and deflated.  I for some crazy unhealthy reason was disappointed with that five ... http://nature-faerie.com/2008/disappointment/first-weigh-in/ OK, so Day Four is OVER.  I swear, it's like every day that goes by on this, I thank God that I've had the strength to get through it.  It is SO hard not to eat.  Today was a rough day for me in some ways, but a great day ... http://nature-faerie.com/2008/diet/day-four/ So, today was Day three for me of my diet.  Things went much better for me as far as the physical symptoms go.  I had a great day, honestly.  My classes were all well behaved, didn't have to write in one single behavior book (yay!) and I didn't get hungry ... http://nature-faerie.com/2008/diet/day-three/ So today is Day 2 of doing the Optifast program.  I am not having any problems resisting food, though I am having problems with some side effects.  I had to go to work today, which made it a little harder because my energy out was definitely more than what I ... http://nature-faerie.com/2008/diet/day-2-of-my-new-diet/ So, I'm starting a new diet.  And yes, I'm sure there are people who are sighing right now and going "Sure you are."  But you know what, I've got to step beyond those people and do this for myself.  At this point in my life, it's not about being thin ... http://nature-faerie.com/2008/diet/the-start-of-something-new/ So, I can't stop thinking about this, and I think if I write about it, it may not bother me so much.  We had a hurricane this past week, for those of you who might not know-I'm smack dab in the path of where Gustav hit, and it left our ... http://nature-faerie.com/2008/family/just-have-to-get-this-off-my-chest/